Seven (weeks) to go...
My hero still stands tall, side effects of radiation minimal.
I've been to each of his treatment sessions this week; the technology blows me away.
They overlay the planning CT scan atop one taken each day so that he is in the exact same position +/- 1mm before they deliver the radiation.
45 minimal doses given every day except weekends over nine weeks so that the target cells are destroyed and have no time to recover, but good cells that are on the periphery of the treatment area, the collateral damage, do have time.
The staff at the hospital are professional, kind, interested, just amazing.
By contrast, FIL has been hospitalized this week in need of a pacemaker.
He's in another hospital on the outskirts of town...we went to visit last night. What a nightmare of a place.
What I find most interesting is no matter how much we think we have everything under control, how incredibly wrong we are.
We have our schedule, a great flat near the hospital loaned to us by a good friend to stay in during the week; caring people to see and be with during this time...so we have all the bases covered - we should both be absolutely fine...
and yet we are fragile and exhausted and just desperately want to be home.
Funny old life isn't it?
Hard times indeed. Somehow, I know you're both strong people, and you will pull through OK. The good times are ahead of you both, and you need to focus on that alone. My very best wishes, Cro.
ReplyDeletethanks Cro...It can be a striking difference between what you head knows and what your body does!
DeleteBest wishes for the "long haul" (which nine weeks surely is).
ReplyDeleteIt's the every day part Rob-bear...amazing how a hour can completely mess up a whole day!
DeleteKeep moving and don't look for the end, but watch your feet. The end will be wonderful when it appears without your looking for it. Best wishes.
ReplyDeleteI like this Joanne...and yup...keeping moving is the secet. Onward and upward
DeleteJ so glad your hub's treatment is going well - the time will soon pass and he'll be as good as new. We are going through a similar thing here - though they have delayed my O/H's radiotherapy treatment for a few weeks. They're trying a new drug out on him, which he seems to be coping with OK. It's brilliant what the doctors can do now. So sorry to hear about your F-i-L. Hope he's home soon. Keep strong.
ReplyDeleteIt's tough being the onlooker isn't it Molly. I hope everything goes well for you and yours and that you are looking after yourself in the meanwhile.
DeleteHello Jacqueline
ReplyDeleteThe treatments will become easier and more automatic and if he is not tired try and plan a special lunch each day at a different restaurant in a new area of the city.
One of my favourtie lunch restaurants is: Doria's on Yonge Street beside Rosedale subway station, both outdoor and indoor dining. They have incredible Italian pizzas, salads and panninis. A great block of shops closeby.
If you need more names of restaurants I shall gladly provide.
We are presently in Ireland. I will sadly not be able to meet Mise this year due to conflicting schedules.
Prayers and good wishes
Helen xx
Our friend's flat, the one we are staying in, is right behind Rosedale subway Helen. This used to be our old stomping ground when we lived at Yonge and St.Clair, so we know it, and Doria well. Sad to see that Lakes has gone, but we are becoming locals at The Rebel House.
DeleteHave fun in Ireland!
You have so much to cope with now but it is good that your hubby's treatment is going so well. Sorry to hear about the problems at the Hospital your FIL is in.
ReplyDeleteGood wishes and hugs winging their way to you.
FIL should be having pace-maker inserted as we speak SH...fingers crossed we will have him home by the weekend...which will be a good thing...I don't fancy his chances if they keep him in that awful hospital for an extended stay!
DeleteI see the face of Asalan: protection, wisdom, peace from Divine Source. We all wish you well, and we all know that not everything always turns out the way we would wish. But All is Always in Divine Right Order. That energy can shelter us in a place of peace and well being when the body with its fragility moves through its phases.
ReplyDeleteI will say this affirmation for both of you daily. Say it, also, for each other.
I hold you, Jacqueline, in the Radiant Glory, the Infinite Spaciousness, Abundance and Love, and the Blissful Peace of Your Own Truth Self.
This is who you both really are. The body comes and goes. The Radiant Soul is forever and ever. Many blessings to you.
Thank you so much HA for these beautiful thoughts and words. Yes, Asalan the protector - this is why this image has been so much on my mind - thank you for making it make sense.
DeleteAll prayers, affirmations most humbly and gratefully received.
Wishing for you strength during this time. I know you will focus on the good, on the beauty of life and get through this. Brighter days are surely on the horizon. Hugs and prayers sent your way.
ReplyDeleteSanda...we are most fortunate to have good people on the ground and in blogtopia holding our backs. Thank you for your wonderfully kind thoughts. It all makes a difference.
DeleteI am so very sorry to hear about your sorrow. May God be with you and your beloved one right at your sides. And may He enlighten your path.
ReplyDeleteMy heart and thoughts are right there with you. Wonderful hugs Dagmar
Thank you Dagmar...I believe I walk with God's Archangels...Michael on my left, Gabriel on my right and Raphael has my back. We will be okay.
DeleteSending prayers to you and your loved one xx
ReplyDeleteThanks sweet Vanessa!
ReplyDeleteHi Jacqueline,
ReplyDeleteThis sounds so awful and I can't imagine the reality of this. I've worked in the medical field for nearly 30 years and have seen a lot of cancer.. some with good outcomes.. some not.
Life is full of unexpected turns. Resilience is key.
You guys are in my prayers..
Our job is to visualize the end result...not the way...and so we will, and all will be well I have to believe Leslie. Thank you so very much for your prayers.
DeleteSo sorry you are going through such difficulties. I can't imagine watching my loved ones go through something like that. Sending prayers your way.
ReplyDeleteThanks Jacqui...all blessings and prayers most gratefully received.
ReplyDeleteHello dear Jacqueline, my first stop since my return to blogging....I somehow remembered that this time in the fall was the beginning of your dear husband's journey into healing again ....I know it is a difficult time and you just want it to be good again...it will be, have no fear.... I am confident that you both will overcome this . Sending you my best positive thoughts and hugs, N.xo
ReplyDeleteThanks Nella...we are one third of the way and he's doing okay. Doctors are marvelous. I know a lot of people knock National Health, but when you are really sick, the system works amazingly well. The team at Princess Margaret couldn't be better. We are still saying CURE, CURE, CURE!
DeleteHow's the reno going?
Been out out of the loop for a bit J...sending hugs, strength, love, comfort, and prayers across the miles to the both of you! ♥
ReplyDeleteGlad you at least have a nice place to stay...hang in there, you'll be home soon.
xoxo J~
Thanks Jessica...certainly full on...most grateful for all the good thoughts and prayers...every little bit helps.
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