J. Six months ago today.
So You Thought You Could Leave Me?
When the Universe was created, billions of years ago, in that single instant every atom that has ever, and will ever exist was created. Every atom that composed you came into being.
You were there then and you will continue to exist until the Universe is no longer.
You are the Earth, the Birds, the Stars, the Flowers, the Butterflies...mostly the Butterflies.
And that is why wherever memory exists, so shall you
...in the amazement of seeing you saunter down the staircase in your adapted mini-dress as I, all of ten-years old, sat with eyes wide and mouth even wider.
...in the joy of sitting at the end of your bed early in the morning as you sang out loud to Englebert Humperdink and swooned about how you "really fancied him".
And I, in my childhood ignorance wished I could "really fancy him" too because of how beautiful it made you look.
...in the heart-stopping excitement of going to town with you to choose the gown for your first Ball.
...in the wonder of seeing you the day you gave birth to your daughter. Sitting in your fairy-tale draped bed, coiffed, manicured and holding this perfect baby-girl.
...in the ease of coming together, after long and distant separations and having it be as it always was, easy and comfortable and loving.
...in seeing you look at your husband in your frailest moment and see only that young, beautiful man you married and have him look right back at you with the same vision.
And so the list goes on and on and on...
So you thought you could leave me?...I don't think so.
The sister you named Jacqueline